What I do know is that I know NOTHING!!!!!! Keep digging and you will see…

Hey Pretty Lady,

What I do know is that I know NOTHING!!!!   Keep digging and you will see!  Ladies, one day I was sitting with a cup of tea in the quite of my house, a husband on the road traveling somewhere and two toddlers off to school, pondering the depth of YHVH’s (Yahweh's)universe.  Naw I must correct myself right now! I was pondering what I “know” of His universe.  I started thinking of all the languages of this world.  How I only can speak one and even within this one language I don’t even know a significant fraction of the words that comprise it, as I’m continually dumbfounded that my dictionary "App" on my iPhone keeps providing me with a word I’ve NEVER seen 4 out of 7 days a week!  I started thinking of all the continents, countries, sciences, traditions, religions, cultures, histories, planets, stars, animals, vegetations and I realized how little I know!  That there is a vast world in which we live with so much depth and even in it’s depth our human knowledge is but a drop of water in a drought ridden desert compared to YHVH’s universal knowledge, wisdom and understanding.  It’s mind boggling how truly insignificant we are in the grand scheme of things but how incredibly significant we are to YHVH’s plan.  Since we are part of His plan we are most significant.  He has perfect purpose for us.

I almost feel foolish, as I’m one day away from turning 35.  Thinking, the audacity I have to even sit down and think I’ve obtained any wisdom in these 34 years that could possibility benefit anyone. To write a no “ish” kinda blog. One that tells it like it is without holding back anything.  Nothing’s too personal, nothing’s too taboo, nothing’s off limits in my life… as I want to be transparent for you.   I laugh out loud because having said that I might need to apologize to my parents and my husband in advance for “telling” too much, but in the end I think the truth ultimately sets us free. 

These letters are really to my younger self

 I wish someone would have handed me a book or told me to read a blog like this from the age of 15-25!  Man, how my life would be different!  So, if I can change the course of your life so that you make wise, knowledgeable decisions because you understand the ramifications of your actions “before” you make them then I’ve done part of what I believe YHVH as put me on this earth to do!

It might bring a little bit of meaning to why I’ve lived this kind of life… So I tell my story and give it to you raw so that you can make a conscious choice about your future as a daughter of YHVH, a woman, a wife, a mother, a friend, a professional…  Man, the list is endless.  We like to think that “I’m every woman it’s all in me!”  And while I find that saying to be true, it is all in us… I think the Western woman has changed the lyrics to “I’m every woman, it’s all in me to do and be right now.”  Big difference!   

 

Proverbs 1:7

The fear of Yahweh is the beginning of knowledge; but the foolish despise wisdom and instruction. –World English Bible

 

Proverbs 9:10

The fear of Yahweh is the beginning of wisdom. The knowledge of the Holy One is understanding.- World English Bible